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[my.lousy.poetry]

Once I tried to kill myself


Once I tried to kill myself at night
No, I didn't drown in tears or pain
I just had nothing left to fight
When nothing mattered all was plain

Not because of that broken heart
I wasn't sad, had no reason why
Just living days that never start
And endless hours passing by

I searched for meaning everywhere
In work, in love, in someone's face
But nothing ever waited there
Never found a sense or solid place

I watched myself begin to rot
Still breathing and still so alive
My body lived, my soul did not
While I pretended to survive

So I tried that night to end it all
I was awake while everything was still
No peaceful death, no final fall
So I kept living against my will

Once I tried to kill myself
The truth for so long I couldn't see
Now I say yes to life and health
I want to live - and that's my victory