It's the loneliness, I told myself. It's the constant feeling of anxiety. It's the feeling of being overwhelmed with the little things. It is... Not okay. I am not okay.
Some don't understand what "it" feels like. Loneliness feels like your head speaks louder than the biggest traffic in the biggest city and you can't hear anyone. You can't see, when someone helps. You just see and feel this hole in your chest, the emptiness in your heart, the feeling of being to much for everyone. You feel like standing in a dark corner with nothing, you feel like nothing. Even though there is your best friend and the other friends, even your boyfriend or girlfriend. They doesn't matter.
I feel lonely, when I am with other people, I feel anxiety every time.
I feel it with my heart racing, my brain not able to stop talking, my mind not able to stop thinking about the "what Ifs" of every possible situation. The shacking hands, and the suddenly appearing could and warm shudders.
Nothing feels right, and everything feels wrong. I can't feel my body, I am scared of my own mind, I feel anxiety while thinking of decisions. I can't to it. I just can't.
Some don't understand what "it" feels like. Loneliness feels like your head speaks louder than the biggest traffic in the biggest city and you can't hear anyone. You can't see, when someone helps. You just see and feel this hole in your chest, the emptiness in your heart, the feeling of being to much for everyone. You feel like standing in a dark corner with nothing, you feel like nothing. Even though there is your best friend and the other friends, even your boyfriend or girlfriend. They doesn't matter.
I feel lonely, when I am with other people, I feel anxiety every time.
I feel it with my heart racing, my brain not able to stop talking, my mind not able to stop thinking about the "what Ifs" of every possible situation. The shacking hands, and the suddenly appearing could and warm shudders.
Nothing feels right, and everything feels wrong. I can't feel my body, I am scared of my own mind, I feel anxiety while thinking of decisions. I can't to it. I just can't.
